As I dance the recovery waltz to the beat of the one two three pause I bemoan such a meaningless life freed from lust, from addiction at last. I keep digging for meaning and sense as I see what I […]
Continue reading »Actively Passive
I offer myself to Thee…. Interesting verb, offer, not passive, for action affects the object, myself — not the subject, I. For me, what’s the difference? Me, myself, and I maintain the ultimate symbiosis. Yet here the verb looms large […]
Continue reading »The Path to Change
How do I become who I want to be? Maybe in some minor ways by deciding, choosing a path then taking it. Maybe that’s possible… when I’ve already drawn near. Then there’s the coming to believe. Not deciding to believe, […]
Continue reading »Suggestion of Action
A “suggestion of death” means the person is dead. A suggestion of action means action taken. How do you follow the path? By walking the Steps. When? Oh, the timing’s up to you… “a course of vigorous action” “at once” […]
Continue reading »The Meeting
She’d promised Mom. Why? To shut her up, of course. To quell the scorn in her whine, to feel older than five or six. So she was here. Or was she not here until she got in there? Out of […]
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