I didn’t want to be here. Who would have thought two months ago when I said I’d keep a key that a day like today would come? I don’t want to be here. I feel miserable, back in the disease, […]
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It Shall Be Opened
Hopelessness. Isolation. Loneliness. In desperation I come without hope, devoid of optimism, seeking entry to the very last door on the block, on the street, before the cliff. If only earlier I had known the guarantee, the promise. I need […]
Continue reading »Eve Grabbed the Apple
The apple was there, the desire was there, Eve was there and she took it, grabbed it, owned it, controlled. Bounty was there, grace was there, God was there and he offered it, willed Eve to accept it, grateful for […]
Continue reading »A Disease!
Addiction is a primary, chronic disease of brain reward, motivation, memory and related circuitry. Dysfunction in these circuits leads to characteristic biological, psychological, social and spiritual manifestations. This is reflected in an individual pathologically pursuing reward and/or relief by substance […]
Continue reading »Faithful to the Chair
It’s not a commitment to calm my mind, to guide my thoughts, to follow my breath, to pray, to envision my life with God. It’s only got to be a commitment to the chair. I get there every day, sit […]
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