Willingness = Courage

I groggily said the serenity prayer
in my head as I tried to motivate me
out of bed this morning,
and the words kept getting tangled.
I knew “willingness” wasn’t in there,
but I kept trying to shove it in.
Sitting here, reading “The Doctor’s Opinion”
then saying it right,
I realize I wasn’t wrong in the first place.
Yes, we need serenity to accept what we can’t change,
wisdom to know what that is,
but for the rest, the part we can change,
we need courage,
and for me right now that means willingness.
Maybe always it means willingness,
but I know for certain today it does.
And that’s all that matters.
Today. Having the willingness
to be courageous enough to avoid the chemicals
that for me produce “the effect…
so illusive that, while they admit it is injurious,
they cannot after a time differentiate
the true from the false.” (Alcoholics Anonymous, page xxviii)