The Real Prize

Did you suffer so many things in vain—if indeed it was in vain? ~ Galatians 3:4 (NASB)

We are unable, at certain times, to bring into our consciousness with sufficient force the memory of the suffering and humiliation of even a week or a month ago. We are without defense against the first drink. ~ Alcoholics Anonymous, page 24


WhenEVER will I learn?
Must I allow the same lesson
to be pounded into my head
and again
and AGAIN???
I know I do it to myself,
that I have a taste of recovery
then toss it away
and again
and again.
But at some point I learn
recovery feels better
than my addiction
that I don’t want the illusive prize
and choose to hold the real one
and my experience
can bless others
doing what they would not do
again and again and again.
God, let it be sooner
rather than later.
Let me listen to those
who have learned the lesson.