Sinning by Eating

God employs our shame to guide His children toward His throne. We learn that words and actions hurt people. Knowledge holds us accountable for those wrongs, which then become sin if we deliberately continue in them. Sin convicts us, since we act against the command to love. ~ Jo Helen Cox, page 17 of soon-to-be-released God Makes Us Holy

A victimless crime. Eating.
It hurts nobody, is not really crime,
is necessary for life, for survival,
for usefulness. But to excess
there’s that pesky old sin gluttony,
and victimless? Tell me that
when I weighed 300 pounds.
Tell that to insurance companies,
to people furnishing wheelchairs,
walkers, motorized carts
for those who have eaten so much
they no longer can walk.
Victimless? I was a victim.
Many people victimize themselves.
People like me. I know how to eat,
have a program, a plan of eating,
a definition of abstinence,
tools, literature, people who help…
and a God who cares and who,
when I release it, when I do,
not just say, I want His will, not mine,
will take away the obsession.
It’s the least I can do if I love
not only my family and society
who would have to care for me
if I could not, but if I love
me.

300pounds