I rather appreciated your ideas about the subtle insanity, which precedes the first drink, but I was confident it could not happen to me after what I had learned. ~ The Big Book and A Study Guide of the 12 Steps (Kindle Locations 851-852).

You explain recovery to me,
and I hear you well. I read the Big Book
and remember it, can tell you where
to find words, phrases, speak
confidently of program.
I know the program, admire it.
But I stand on the outside looking in
like a child peering into a pet store
(or a candy store, my preference of course…)
Only when I stop looking at “your”
problem, “your” addiction,
“your” weakness around food…
Only when I own my problem
and can see the way the program works
for me can I benefit from the wisdom
of the Big Book. Just knowing
without owning leaves me powerless.