If I Want It

All the promises of recovery can be mine if I want them. This program shows me what to do. For Today (Kindle Location 1671).

How can you want something
and simultaneously not?
How can something glorious
be just within reach, so close,
so desirable…but habit, custom,
fear stops you, makes you mutter,
“Wait a minute. When I finish
this need to rebel, this egotism,
this procrastination” —
Oh, yes, I crave it, long for it,
but not just yet. Not now.
But hold on to me and keep close
so I can want it more than I crave
what I’ve always trusted instead…