When We Retire at Night

We constructively review our day.
How many times have I lain in bed
and trounced the ruins I’d made
of a day, wildly swinging blame
at all who’d chanced my way —
especially me.
Recriminations and guilt
consumed me like jackals
devouring a carcass.
We constructively review…
resentment, selfishness, dishonesty,
fears. Just examine them,
an interesting specimen, a species
to be tagged. Then, calmly,
consider positive, corrective,
loving choices – loving to others,
loving to me. Recenter, refocus,
consider others, life’s plan,
knowing tomorrow’s victories
over my difficulties help
those around me. Listen
for wisdom, for guidance,
for sought forgiveness.
Then sleep, rising to serve.

When we retire at night…we ask God’s forgiveness and inquire what corrective measures should be taken. (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 86)