For today: I want to be free of old patterns that stifle growth. I treat myself to the pleasure of admitting ignorance and the fun of asking questions. ~ Anonymous, Overeaters. For Today (Kindle Locations 2620-2622). Overeaters Anonymous, Inc. Kindle Edition.

What of my old patterns stifle growth?
The hours a day I spend
playing stupid computer games
is the big one. As I sit here after eight
in the evening putting together
tomorrow’s Recovery Daily Dose,
I have a cell phone timer set to remind me
in three hours plus change to download free tokens
for a couple of games. I resolved in a meeting
this morning to name my current
defects of character. Husband and I
miscommunicated today
and I committed to tell him what I heard
when we had that kind of discussion tomorrow.
I want to go apologize again
but I know clarifications tomorrow
will better serve the problem
than my groveling now over
how little he ate. He’s an adult
and knows how to get what he wants
and/or that I’ll bring him anything he wants.
I will strive for effective communication tomorrow.
And it could actually be fun to ask the questions
I promised for tomorrow. After all,
honesty means not just truth telling in words,
but being inside out authentic.