Constant auditory input all around, we selectively let in some, ignore the rest, mute some, open all the stops for few. The committee, though, inside my head… it’s not so easy to tune it, choose to hear, opt out. Shame […]
Continue reading »Unloved
I loathe myself, my life. I want to die, just lie here and cease. How can anyone feel anything for me but hate, pity, disgust? Hope hovers, waiting for surrender, wanting to be found.
Continue reading »Nothing Tastes as Good
Nothing tastes as good as abstinence feels. (Program saying) Food galore, and great stuff — times past I would have gorged all day. Such a special day, surrounded by family, friends, good folk. Stress, feelings, turmoil within, about. Alcohol, cake, chips, […]
Continue reading »Considering Yoda
“Do, or do not. There is no try.” Was Yoda a Twelve-Stepper? He was always aware of the Power, the Force, greater than he. Anonymity initiated his relationship with Luke, though afterwards he revealed himself, shared his strength. He certainly […]
Continue reading »Basics Staying Power
If I never leave the basics, I never have to get them back. But where are they, what are they? Basics are fundamentals, the principles… Admitting powerlessness, I look inward honestly — honesty is a principle. What could be more […]
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