Happiness, not in another place but this place…not for another hour, but this hour. ~ Walt Whitman “Go to Hell!” he’d yell. “I live there!” I’d answer, a refrain, well rehearsed, believed. Owned. Time passed. Separation, return, some kind of […]
Continue reading »Martyrdom
Martyrs screw things up. ~ Ernie Lawson Constantly suffering, displaying and exaggerating distress… playing the martyr, afflicted by the abuse, the misunderstanding, the lack of appreciation. Poor, poor pitiful me, I think I’ll eat worms. But worms aren’t enough. Surely […]
Continue reading »Fact or Feeling
Is it a feeling, or is it a fact? ~ Julie Trudeau When I’ve not eaten a minimal amount, when the body requires food, that hunger is. It’s real. When I “deserve” a treat, when my need rises to a […]
Continue reading »Who I Don’t Want to Be
Now willing to listen and take suggestions, I have found that the process of discovering who I really am begins with knowing who I really don’t want to be. ~ Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th edition, pages 456-457 I’d guess standing at […]
Continue reading »My Soul Mate
I love you more easily than myself, feel for you, ache for you, as you walk into these rooms. Your pain, fear, desperation confound my heart with memories— no, far too calm a word. Residual angst, assonance, antiphony. You and […]
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