He marched it off in bootcamp, sweated it off when told “drop and gimme 50.” Made weight each year by desperation. But retirement came with no commands, no requirements, no impediments to appetite. He left the commands but found a […]
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New computer. Downloading Chrome and the Carbonite files now. New is exciting. Familiar is comfortable. New is fear-inducing. Familiar is getting by even with problems growing in severity. New food plan. More natural stuff, goodbye to wheat, pretty much to […]
Continue reading »How Long Will It Take?
When you’re done suffering, you will let go. The question is how long will it take? Grow through awareness. ~ Kute Blackson The Big Book says when talking to an addict to leave him alone if he shows no interest. You […]
Continue reading »Be Empty to Become Filled
…if you want abundance, knowledge, health, love, and all the other attributes that personify the Tao, you need to be receptive to them. Lao-tzu instructs that you must be empty in order to become filled, for attachments keep you so […]
Continue reading »A Hole in the Soul
Missing. Presumed dead. My hopes. My dreams. My potential. My sanity. Without purpose, compass, anchor, mainsail, destination. A hole in my soul. How can I fill the hole? I’ve tried alcohol, drugs, food, gambling, shopping, sex, dependency on people, exercise, […]
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