I had to be first in everything because in my perverse heart I felt myself the least of God’s creatures. I could not accept my deep sense of inferiority, and so I strove to become captain of the baseball team, and I did learn to play the fiddle. Lead I must—or else. This was the “all or nothing” kind of demand that later did me in. ~ AA World Services Inc. As Bill Sees It. A.A. World Services, Inc. Kindle Edition.

Bill Wilson speaks.
I had to be first in everything
because in my perverse heart
I felt myself the least
of God’s creatures.
A deep sense of inferiority?
Believable? Oh, yes!
It seems we all come into
the Rooms of Recovery
could identify with a deep sense of inferiority,
and always strove to become in charge.
Lead we must — or else.
This was all or nothing need
made us the addicts
who identified, felt at home,
when we finally found these rooms!