I was very unhappy and discouraged. I felt inadequate and doubted my ability to manage my life and move ahead. I was becoming more and more desperate. Then, out of nowhere, came the thought that I was dealing with a serious character defect. I don’t know why I hadn’t seen it that way before, but I hadn’t. I felt sure I could handle it on my own. Seeing it in the light of a character defect put a whole new spin on it. I knew I had better turn to God for help. ~ P., Bill; W., Todd; S., Sara. Drop the Rock: Removing Character Defects – Steps Six and Seven (p. 68). Hazelden Publishing. Kindle Edition.
In context the passage dealt with finances,
overspending, poor choices.
It hit home for me in procrastination,
in adequately seeing to commitments,
to time spent on stupid computer games,
to day after day not getting around to tasks,
to messages,”when you’re finished”
and I’ve yet to start…
I’m very unhappy and discouraged.
I feel inadequate and doubt
my ability to manage my life
and move ahead.
It IS a serious character defect!
My Creator, I am now willing
that You should have all of me,
good and bad. I pray that You
now remove from me
every single defect of character
which stands in the way
of my usefulness to You
and my fellows.
Grant me strength,
as I go out from here,
to do Your bidding.
I know I had better
turn to God for help!