There is no point whatever in remaining in the prison of believing that this is up to you. You do NOT exist in different lights. It is this belief which has confused you about your own reality. Why would you want to remain so obscure to yourself? ~ Wapnick, Kenneth. Absence from Felicity : The Story of Helen Schucman and Her Scribing of A Course in Miracles.

We have believed most of our lives
we were responsible…that if it was to be
it was up to “me.” But the glory of this program
is that we give up directing the whole kit and caboodle
and begin to trust a Greater Power
to take the wheel. We need not remain
in the prison of believing “that this is up to you.”
We need not remain confused about
our own reality. Like so many who have
led the way, we make a decision to turn our
will and our lives over to the care of God
as we understood Him.