Let me count the ways…
- I remember the taste and the feeling
like I deserve it, like a pat on the back. - I have extra time before interacting with others
and want to put off social ineptness as long as possible. - Everybody else is doing it, I don’t want to be different.
- In the process of eating I forget my concerns,
my discomfort, my inability to fit in. - I’ve been good, it won’t hurt.
- It brought comfort so long…maybe it will again.
- Just one won’t hurt…but ?I’ve never stopped at one, though.
- They gave this party in my honor…it would be rude not to.
- The normal eater I live with brought it home
but doesn’t want it now. It’s a waste to toss it. - Why do I break my abstinence? I don’t have a clue.
Abstinence is a state of grace by which I am balanced physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It’s about food, but it’s much more. It’s a way of living that incorporates the principles of the Twelve Steps and gives meaning to my life. ~ Abstinence, Second Edition: Members of Overeaters Anonymous Share Their Experience, Strength and Hope (Kindle Locations 296-297). Overeaters Anonymous. Kindle Edition.