She knows she knew better,
rues her failure to do better,
regrets her failure
to Keep Coming Back
as well as her neglecting
to return for so long.
She’s known the whole time
where to find the answer
but EGO, the Freud kind
as well as the Edging God Out,
but persisted in hoping against hope
she could recapture the magic
without humiliation,
but she cannot
so today is the day
she begins the pilgrimage
back to Recovery.