One day I walked into a cafe to telephone. In no time I was beating on the bar asking myself how it happened. As the whisky rose to my head I told myself I would manage better next time, but I might as well get good and drunk then. And I did. ~Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition (Kindle Locations 380-381).

When you’re in the food, the alcohol,
the drugs, you manage to put together
some clean days and swear, this time you’ll make it.
When you’re in the food, the alcohol,
the drugs, you manage to put together
some clean days and swear, this time will be different.
But if the clean days are not based on change,
fundamental life-changing, if you have not had
a spiritual experience and surrendered your life and will
to a Power Greater than yourself, if you look
to will power for the change, It won’t be different.
If you’re not a changed being, failure waits,
but have hope. Find the path in Twelve Steps