Our so-called will power becomes practically nonexistent. We are unable, at certain times, to bring into our consciousness with sufficient force the memory of the suffering and humiliation of even a week or a month ago. We are without defense against the first drink. ~ Alcoholics Anonymous page 24.

We are assured “There is a solution”
but only after the truth is hammered home
that it’s not our will-power, that our resources
are absolutely worthless. No, we’re beyond human aid.
And the Big Book is so harsh as to say
even when declaring the existence of a solution
that none of us like the self-searching,
the leveling of our pride,
the confession of shortcomings
which the process requires
for its successful consummation.
BUT we see others who through all that
and are living the lives we long for.
And we want those lives enough.
Enough to surrender and to really live!