You know, I knew what he was talking about,
it’s better to live a moral life, to do right
without considering doing wrong,
to never contemplate stealing, assaulting,
destroying somebody’s stuff.
But then there are those pesky character defects.
Like lying. I know better. I resolve to do better.
But I’m so good at lying. It’s so much easier
to say what he wants to hear. I’m not responsible
to tell her all I know, to not mislead him
with artfully crafted statements.
Can I approach lying with a heart-based attitude?
The guilt would appreciate it…
And then there’s the food. The list of foods
from which I abstain. When I follow the rules.
The record keeping I do when it’s convenient.
The times the plate of cookies just call my name…
And not just food. Using the tools,
reading the literature, living the life.
It’s so hard to get around to doing it all just right.
But if I could manage a heart-based attitude…
Isn’t that what they’ve been trying to tell me
these years I’ve worked at being in Recovery?
Isn’t it time I lived it instead of trying?
I promise you that when you adjust
rule-based thinking to a
heart-based attitude,a
your life will change!