How Long Will It Take?

When you’re done suffering, you will let go. The question is how long will it take? Grow through awareness. ~ KuteĀ Blackson

The Big Book says when talking to an addict
to leave him alone if he shows no interest.
You may know he needs it, his family is sure,
his friends bemoan his weaknesses, but for him…
it’s not time yet. But he knows. He feels it.
He regrets his weakness, his failures, his addiction.
Still, knowing is not being at the bottom of the pit,
the hopelessness, the turning point, willing to admit
both an unmanageable life as to the substance
and an insane one as to everything else.

Still, sooner or later, the time comes.
The critical moment. The barrel bottom.
And then the miracle can happen. But not earlier?
Yes, earlier! When we open our minds, our hearts,
our spirit to a way out, it comes then. Maybe
we have to pull it back, to grasp the illusion of control,
to go back out, but when we’ve been there,
stuck our head into the miracle, seen a glimpse,
then the time is near, recovery is within reach.
When you’re done suffering, you really will let go!

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