Being Good

I no longer have to try to be “good.” God does it for me. ~ Voices of Recovery (Kindle Location 2000).

How often I tend to report to my sponsor,
“I was good” or “I behaved”?
That’s a diet mentality, governed by willpower,
centered on myself. Then when it’s not true
I say “the food called me,” “she insisted,”
“I couldn’t help it!” How backwards!
I’m powerless over food. That’s well established,
proved by decades of trying, failing, blaming,
resolving, starting over, failing again.
When things go right, I’ve done only one thing right…
released it, turned it over to a power greater than I.
When I fall back into the food, that’s the time I did it,
I claimed it, I took back my will. And that’s the time
it might as well be a diet because no matter what I call it
that’s what it is and for me, a diet’s always going to end
in failure.

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