Surrender, then, is an unconscious event. It is not willed by the individual. It can occur only when one becomes involved with one’s unconscious mind in a set of circumstances which signal the undeniable need for an external greater power. The definition of surrender can be understood only when all its unconscious ramifications and true inner meaning are glimpsed. ~ Overeaters Anonymous, Second Edition (Kindle Locations 3027-3029)

I give up. I thought I could do it
at my own time, in my own way,
keeping my control, my management,
my supremacy. Incredible, huh?
That’s called insanity. And it is.
I guess I thought I could control it all.
How many prisoners, laying down their arms,
retain control? Can they set the terms?
Can they determine the time of events?
Can they remain in control albeit in chains?
No. I give up.
I really do surrender.