Yo-yo dieting.
Corseting undergarments

to get pants to fasten.

Pretending to be fat AND happy.
Trying every new gadget,
each new diet, mind control,
magic fixes by the dozen.
I’ve played all my life,
got good at the games
but never ever managed
a string of wins,
any kind of worthy record.
A lifetime of fooling myself —
but nobody else. Until now.
Game over. Solution found.
Life without hope abandoned
at the door of recovery.