However, one night I made a conscious decision to break my abstinence and ate three cookies. Then I called a trusted friend in program and confessed. She asked me, ‘Aren’t you tired of starting over?’ I made another decision that night. I was never going to start over again; I date my continuous abstinence from that day, more than fifteen years ago.” ~ Overeaters Anonymous, Second Edition (Kindle Locations 1640-1643)

Tired of starting over,
exhausted with the old routine,
start a diet on Monday or the first,
or the dark of the moon? and break it,
going ahead with the bad behavior,
the old habits, waiting for the next
Monday, first, new moon to begin again.
But after a while there’s no praise
in coming back, in keeping on, in holding tight
to the tradition, all we need is a desire to stop.
After a while the same old stuff, starting once more…
After a while responsibility, accepting maturity,
must be embraced. After a while you’re just tired
of starting over one more time.