Not Helpless

I am powerless over fixing myself, but I am not helpless. ~  Voices of Recovery (Kindle Location 205).

Admitted we were powerless over food —
that our lives had become unmanageable.
Yes. I cannot manage my life,
I am way beyond being able to control food,
to exercise one whiff of self-control,
to regender that once-present willpower…
I cannot do it. I give up.

Now, what comes next may be wallowing
in waste, giving in, letting go and trying to believe…
I could enjoy it. But what works, what solves the problem
is not giving up but surrendering. Moving past that first,
that initial step, but moving on to the other eleven,
finding a way to get past it still without willpower,
never finding self-control, never being “cured”
but only – ONLY??? – recovered.

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. (Confucius)